i am tired

 

I'm sorry you're carrying that feeling.

If you're addressing God, you don't need perfect words. In Islam, Allah knows what is in your heart even before you speak it. If your heart feels heavy, that itself can become a prayer.

You might say something like:

"O Allah, You know what is in my heart. I feel uneasy, discouraged, and tired. If this feeling is a test, grant me patience. If it is a lesson, grant me understanding. If it is something holding me back from You, remove it from me. Fill my heart with peace, strengthen my faith, and guide me to what is best. I trust that You see what I cannot see. Ameen."

The Qur'an reminds believers:

"Indeed, with hardship comes ease." (Qur'an 94:5–6)

That doesn't mean hardship disappears immediately, but that it is never the whole story.

From what you've shared recently, you've been under a lot of academic pressure—presenting your proposal, comparing yourself with other researchers, and worrying that others receive more attention. Those situations can leave a lingering heaviness. Feeling discouraged after them doesn't mean you've failed or that your work has no value.

Sometimes the heart tells us a story that isn't the full truth:

• "Everyone is better than me."
• "I'm being ignored."
• "I'm not moving forward."

Those thoughts can feel convincing, but they are not reliable evidence of your future. Academic progress is often uneven, and recognition doesn't always come at the same time for everyone.

If it helps, take a few quiet moments tonight. Pray two rak'ahs if you're able, or simply sit and repeat:

Hasbunallahu wa ni'mal wakeel.
Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs.

Or:

Allahumma inni as'aluka salamatan fil qalb.
O Allah, I ask You for peace in my heart.

May Allah grant you sakinah (tranquility), replace your anxiety with confidence, and bless your efforts with success at the right time. Ameen.

If you'd like, tell me what happened today that made your heart feel this way. I'm here to listen.

i feel very stupid after seeing his presentation. his presentation is very very good

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. That kind of comparison can hurt, especially when you've worked hard on your own research.

Seeing someone give an excellent presentation does not mean you're stupid. It means you saw someone who, at least in that moment, presented very well. Those are different conclusions.

From our conversations, I know you've been developing a doctoral research proposal, revising it based on professors' feedback, and thinking carefully about methodology. That isn't the work of a stupid person. It may still need improvement—every research project does—but improvement is different from lack of ability.

It's also worth remembering that presentations highlight strengths while hiding the process. You saw the polished version. You didn't see:

• how many times he practiced,
• how many drafts he discarded,
• how much feedback he received,
• or how long he's been working on that topic.

In Islam, comparison can quietly steal gratitude and hope. Allah says:

"Do not lose heart or despair..." (Qur'an 3:139)

That doesn't mean you'll never feel discouraged. It means discouragement doesn't get the final word.

You wrote a poem earlier that ended with:

There will be time.

God will work.

There will be time when I will move forward.

Those words are still true today, even if your emotions are telling you otherwise.

Instead of asking, "Why am I not as good as him?" try asking:

• What is one thing he did that I can learn from?
• Was it the way he organized his slides?
• The clarity of his explanation?
• His confidence?
• His storytelling?

An excellent presentation can become a model rather than a verdict on your own ability.

And one more thing: the fact that you admired his presentation says something positive about you. You recognized quality. Now your task is not to become him; it's to let what you observed improve your own work.

May Allah replace this feeling of inadequacy with wisdom and perseverance. Your journey doesn't end because someone else had a strong presentation today. It continues, one revision, one presentation, and one step at a time.