in group……………………..

in chat…………………….. they seem happy…………………….. I wish I can feel what they feel…………………….. soon……………………..…………………….. I want to be happy…………………….. just like them…………………….. god…………………….. I harbor myself to you…………………….. only with your permission…………………….. all that can happen ……………………..

sad in a happy day…………………………….

I cant think others……………………………. just that……………………………. always mentioning your name……………………………. to make me calm……………………………. to soothe me……………………………. hoping for a miracle……………………………. I beg you……………………………. please come quickly……………………………. I cant bear it any longer……………………………. I still have thoughts about it……………………………. it hurts……………………………. it has been days……………………………. it is heavy……………………………. burden my heart……………………………. my shoulder……………………………. my head……………………………. my thoughtv……………………………. my brain……………………………. my everything……………………………. god……………………………. help me please …………………………….

I have a dream…………………………….

that my paper will be cleared……………………………. maybe tomorrow……………………………. then I will update my status……………………………. that I have been stressed for days……………………………. but suddenly got accepted……………………………. then I am happy……………………………. coz there is god……………………………. maybe I should not plan this……………………………. this is jinx……………………………. maybe he hates this……………………………. let him the only one to know……………………………. and his comment makes my heart sick……………………………. I want to make him understand……………………………. but I don’t know how……………………………. it is difficult……………………………. he is not my level……………………………. god help me please …………………………….

they talk about it…………………………….

they should do that……………………………. there is no other topics……………………………. if they don’t do that……………………………. it will be quiet……………………………. they seem okay……………………………. they seem on His track……………………………. I hope I can be like them……………………………. but all their talk irritate me……………………………. I don’t know why……………………………. maybe there is so much evil in me……………………………. and there is another punishment……………………………. I crash a bridge……………………………. more money……………………………. meanwhile I am short of it……………………………. do I need to borrow again……………………………. lord\……………………………. please stop……………………………. this punishments……………………………. I am not strong enough……………………………. you are great …………………………….

stressed…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. become thin………………………………………..……………………………………….. maybe it is time………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am focus praying………………………………………..……………………………………….. I become very stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. I should not be able to eat………………………………………..……………………………………….. till the judgment day………………………………………..……………………………………….. so let me be thin………………………………………..……………………………………….. skin and bone………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I cant concentrate………………………………………..……………………………………….. I think only that………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am afraid………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am sad………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t make me stop………………………………………..……………………………………….. thinking of you………………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t make me stop………………………………………..……………………………………….. loving you………………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t make me stop………………………………………..……………………………………….. asking for your help ………………………………………..………………………………………..

they both get approved…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. I get more stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. they seem happy………………………………………..……………………………………….. in group………………………………………..……………………………………….. I get more stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord help me………………………………………..……………………………………….. I cant handle it………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I want to be happy like them………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I want to go there like them………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I love you………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. grant my wish please………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am afraid………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord ………………………………………..………………………………………..

now it is torturing…………

……………………………..……………………………………….. I was enjoying it………………………………………..……………………………………….. become poor………………………………………..……………………………………….. get whatever it is………………………………………..……………………………………….. the cheap one………………………………………..……………………………………….. as long as it gets me there………………………………………..……………………………………….. now I feel old………………………………………..……………………………………….. this makes me uncomfortable………………………………………..……………………………………….. the train………………………………………..……………………………………….. the seat………………………………………..……………………………………….. the bathroom………………………………………..……………………………………….. the power source………………………………………..……………………………………….. all makes me ill………………………………………..……………………………………….. but thx lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am saved arriving there………………………………………..……………………………………….. and I can process all my business………………………………………..……………………………………….. thx lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. he saves me all the way ………………………………………..………………………………………..