cannot make a good poem..................................

i have limited vocabs.................................. meanwhile i did read a lot of books.................................. i hope i can grasp all the things i read.................................. back then i feel cocky.................................. i can finish a lot of books.................................. now i get the punishment.................................. all i read have gone.................................. not staying in me.................................. maybe this is a conviction.................................. coz i did steal a lot of books in library.................................. lord help me please.................................. bring back all the things i have read ..................................

now it happens again………………………………………….

thei become noisy bout what their own need…………………………………………. lord help me please…………………………………………. lord make me strong please…………………………………………. to face them…………………………………………. to face it…………………………………………. to take their noisiness…………………………………………. I hope everything will run smoothly…………………………………………. I hope there will not be cancellation…………………………………………. I hope there will not be heartache…………………………………………. I hope their noisiness will not disturb me…………………………………………. my calm, my aim, my pray…………………………………………. I hope I can focus what is important…………………………………………. I hope I will be safe there…………………………………………. I hope that place will make me happy ………………………………………….

hsti it here..................................

one of the reasons is that.................................. the story is crazily insane.................................. making me very irritated.................................. knowing the story line.................................. hearing it unwillingly.................................. becoming stone in my throat.................................. but must accept it.................................. must be patient.................................. it will be a little more.................................. the course will be ended.................................. no more coming here.................................. connecting in office.................................. of in cafe.................................. or maybe there is a belssing in disguise here.................................. that i dont know ..................................

chat with him ....................................

great .................................... now he has a partner .................................... who has children and wife .................................... and he is ready .................................... that in the future he will be dumped .................................... and he also has plan .................................... making their own family .................................... lord .................................... want that .................................... lord .................................... help me .................................... send to me .................................... confused .................................... there are choices .................................... you want that .................................... i want this .................................... lord .................................... help me please ....................................

they do it again..............................

like before.............................. there is a plan.............................. but i do not go there yet.............................. and they have already been bothering me with a lot of things.............................. making me annoyed.............................. but i have to accept it.............................. i must be patient.............................. i must be silent.............................. report it to him............................................................ i hope it did not happen again.............................. the failure like before.............................. i hope bless it.............................. i hope protect it ..............................

want to pray..................................

but there are a lot of things they ask me to do.................................. buy them all.................................. but me.................................. i dont want it.................................. being thrifty.................................. and dont want to make myself comfortable.................................. when bringing not so much things.................................. i hope i can be strong.................................. i must be strong.................................. holding the desire to shop.................................. whn i cant do it in a day to day basis.................................. let the lord help me.................................. i believe that.................................. i beg for that ..................................

i plan and i make debt..............................

my debt is piling up.............................. as i believe to something that is not certain yet.............................. that doesnt exist yet.............................. i rely the way i pay to that thing.............................. the one that doesnt exist yet.............................. the one that isnt certain yet.............................. jthat is satanic.............................. what he said.............................. now i cant be like that.............................. stop making plan.............................. stop making debt.............................. all must be paid little by little.............................. the cc maybe next month.............................. the aunt dont know when.............................. the office one and two will deducted from my salary monthly.............................. i must be able to live with my limited salary.............................. and i must be able to pay his tuition till he graduates.............................. may lord help me ..............................