---- – they dont know but they act they now. They say what they believe to be my mind. But all they say is all wrong.
They say that i am not ready to meet them. But that is not the case. The case is that i am not ready but i really dont want to meet them. This is my way to torture them. This is my way to show the lord that i dont need them.
But let the god and the only god knows what is really happen. God knows that i always mention them in my prayer.
Do they know and understand what is really happening? Dont they remember what was happening?
She just delivered me to this world. That was all. (and carried me in her womb for nine months) that was all (although we cannot say ‘that was all’ coz that process was really heavy stuff).
As i remember, sty is the one who raise me when i was a baby. She loves me, she cares for me. She nurtures me. She always be there for me. Till i was a kid.
Then i was placed to be with nwt for a while. (though i cant remember if it was a happy memory or sad one) though i should always be grateful to the lord for what all happening in this life.
This writing is not like what i plan. All the thought has its own expostulation.
What i plan is like this. That moment my mouth could not say anything. This is what i want to say: when i live with nwt i really try hard to fit in. But that was so hard. When they cast me away, i am not sad at all. I am very relieve. I was so happy. I dont have to pretend to be someone else no more.
Being cast away is so painful. If you never expereince this, dont say u feel what i feel. It is ok if u cast me away. I will be fine. I have my god. And i have sty. U can live or u can die, i dont care. I will have sty as my mama. I will have heaven in sty foot. I will follow her to the grave. I will be happy as long as sty is around.
As far as i know, there are no parents cast away their children. But this is happening to me. U dont expereince this. U dont know what kind of pain i have. But u never allow me to express what i fell. So just let the lord knows what i feel inside.
This is not me being not ready. This is me following ur saying. U cast me away. U dont want me as ur child. So that is what i do. I dont want to be ur shild anymore. I will have sty as my mama.
Monday, August 4, 2014
Sty vs nwt
---- – they dont know but they act they now. They say what they believe to be my mind. But all they say is all wrong.
They say that i am not ready to meet them. But that is not the case. The case is that i am not ready but i really dont want to meet them. This is my way to torture them. This is my way to show the lord that i dont need them.
But let the god and the only god knows what is really happen. God knows that i always mention them in my prayer.
Do they know and understand what is really happening? Dont they remember what was happening?
She just delivered me to this world. That was all. (and carried me in her womb for nine months) that was all (although we cannot say ‘that was all’ coz that process was really heavy stuff).
As i remember, sty is the one who raise me when i was a baby. She loves me, she cares for me. She nurtures me. She always be there for me. Till i was a kid.
Then i was placed to be with nwt for a while. (though i cant remember if it was a happy memory or sad one) though i should always be grateful to the lord for what all happening in this life.
This writing is not like what i plan. All the thought has its own expostulation.
What i plan is like this. That moment my mouth could not say anything. This is what i want to say: when i live with nwt i really try hard to fit in. But that was so hard. When they cast me away, i am not sad at all. I am very relieve. I was so happy. I dont have to pretend to be someone else no more.
Being cast away is so painful. If you never expereince this, dont say u feel what i feel. It is ok if u cast me away. I will be fine. I have my god. And i have sty. U can live or u can die, i dont care. I will have sty as my mama. I will have heaven in sty foot. I will follow her to the grave. I will be happy as long as sty is around.
As far as i know, there are no parents cast away their children. But this is happening to me. U dont expereince this. U dont know what kind of pain i have. But u never allow me to express what i fell. So just let the lord knows what i feel inside.
This is not me being not ready. This is me following ur saying. U cast me away. U dont want me as ur child. So that is what i do. I dont want to be ur shild anymore. I will have sty as my mama.
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