the dream comes again…………………………………..

I try to fool myself………………………………….. tell myself that I have enough………………………………….. that I surrender………………………………….. that I let it go………………………………….. that I don’t want it anymore………………………………….. but the reality is like this………………………………….. what should I do………………………………….. I am tired lord………………………………….. tired of hoping………………………………….. tired of wanting………………………………….. it is enough lord………………………………….. I want to continue living………………………………….. I want to be happy………………………………….. I want to laugh………………………………….. I want to smile …………………………………..